The beginning..

So, eventhough I say I want to write something everyday, I have missed a few days. I originally wanted to start the day after my birthday, July 16th, but I have to settle for today. Oh, I must admit, I am not a writer nor do I try to be, but I feel I have to get these thoughts out there and this maybe the easiest way..

So the blog was originally inspired by the movie Rent. I had never seen it, but a friend lent me the dvd, and for the moment it started I was absolutely hooked. My husband and I are music lovers, and we especially love broadway musicals. This one had such deep seeded roots and hit so many emotional levels that I have been watching it for several weeks now. I keep going back to it. Jonathan Larson had the most genius ways of expressing love, pain, friendship, and family though music. So that was the inspiration.

Living with no regret. I feel I can identify with this theme more easily than some. In my 31 years of life, I have felt that for a long time I was always the yes person. I would do anything someone would ask of me. For the most part I still do, but with some limits. The few years before this led me to being stuck, unhappy and drowning in a miserable job, not a lot of advanced education, wanting to be a supportive wife and mother, but I was drained from any energy. I was underperforming, negative energies omitting, and tired. Mostly tired of all the bull shit I had created for myself. I was then encouraged to leave my job, which paid as much as my husbands job, and I did it...with support from the husband. It was the scariest thing I've ever done. But I do not regret the time spent there...3 years..I may not have had a great work life there, but I did make some really great friends.